It’s been so long …
(This blog post is dedicated to my baby boy Kayden who is 5 weeks old today and who was originally scheduled to be born on this day today. )
WHATTTTTT!!! BABY!!!??? I know just keep on reading :)
Okay. I know you’re like “whoa”. And you probably hit the “whoa” too (yeah that dance move everyone’s doing). You probably said something smart or mean in the last couple of months like “dang... she gave up on her blogs” or “she’s so lazy she haven’t posted”. I’m going to accept all the talk and do apologize for the lack of consistency (okay, it’s way past lack of consistency.. it’s more like abandonment).
But, let me explain.
First off, numero uno, I AM NOW A MOTHER!
Yes, you read that right. I am a mother to a beautiful baby boy.
Y’all wanna know some deets? Yes? No? Well I’m going to give y’all a little anyways :)hehe:)
November 28, 2018, I found out I was pregnant. Now, my reaction wasn’t like the typical being like “oh my gosh” or panicky. I was mute and all smiles because for so long I just thought I would never get pregnant or let alone be a mother to someone. I’m not going to get too deep in but a few times I was told by exes that I would be the worst mother ever or they would sort of seem as though getting me pregnant was something I have to earn. And then, I had the whole PCOS thing and the doctor was telling me I would have to take extra steps to get pregnant. I’ll save those stories for another time.
Today would have been the day my baby would have been born but he decided to come 5 weeks early on June 28, 2019.
So this blog post is in honor of my baby boy turning 5 weeks old on his original due date, August 2, 2019.
But yeah guys! I am a mother and during the time I haven’t posted I was busy being so tired, anxious, worried, and a little sick. The beginning of my pregnancy, the smell of makeup made me so sick I had to put down the brush and call a quits for while. I just knew I would have gotten back in the groove during my pregnancy but, my self esteem went down. I did do my makeup a few times but I was not feeling the camera and the camera was feeling me. I looked so different and it was so hard for me to accept it.
Today, I accept it! All the changes I went through was all worth it. Seeing my handsome boy makes me careless about the changes I’ve went through. I’ll do a post on my labor and delivery and I’ll do another on life after birth. So stay tune for those posts.
I’m not going to say I’ll start posting daily because I’m still getting the hang of mommy life and my beauty life. But, I promise to be more active in posting a few time each week. My blog site is my happy place. It is a place where I can let loose and talk about everything relating to my life and beauty. It feels amazing typing this blog post and I will continue to build myself up through my blog site.
Thank you all who’ve continued to support me by visiting my site and reading my post. There’s much more coming and I can’t wait to share it with you all !
Till next post! ( muahh )